First of all, how stinkin' sweet are these two families?! The final day of mini sessions yesterday was COLD but it left me feeling so madly in love with life.
I'm going to back up a little bit and then (hopefully) bring this post full circle.
This weekend was absolutely nuts. My husband was in Pittsburgh all day & night Saturday, which left me alone taking care of the baby. Which, normally wouldn't be a big deal but Asher is either teething or was fighting off some bug. He was so incredibly grumpy, nothing entertained him, he wanted held and he wanted to cry. So beyond thankful for my mom bringing me some lunch- because it was the only thing I had time to eat that day. I seriously couldn't even find time to feed myself. Also, Saturday was one of my best friend's 30th birthday. While her celebration was also in Pittsburgh (2 hours away), I sadly wasn't able to go. Asher is still a bit too young for me to feel comfortable being that far away, in the event something did happen. It absolutely broke my heart telling my friend that I wasn't able to make it for her big celebration. She of course understood, but it still was really hard.
Move forward to Sunday: We had Jerry's family's Thanksgiving at 12:30. Not only was Jerry not home yet, but I had to shower, get myself ready, take care of the dog, get Asher ready & all packed up (we all know how much crap you have to pack for a baby!!), AND: I also had my final day of Christmas Minis at the Tree Farm later that day. Our morning was pretty chaotic but somehow, we made it out the door.
I have to admit, I was in a pretty sour mood Sunday. I was so exhausted from the day before, Asher had me up 3-6:30am, and the weather was insanely cold. Knowing I had to leave a warm house full of family to go out in the freezing cold, wasn't really helping my mood. But I layered on the clothes, packed up my car full of props & camera gear, and headed to the tree farm. I decided to put on some Christmas music to lift my spirits and get me in the Christmas mood: best decision I made all day! :)
Both of the families I had scheduled for the sessions were prompt, looking so dang cute, and ready to quickly bust these sessions out. I don't know what it is about repeat clients that make my heart so happy, but it truly does. Maybe it's the knowing that these families not only trust you with some of their most precious moments, but they adore your work enough to keep coming back. It's a feeling that always takes me by surprise and looking back on all these moments I have experienced and captured for people, it's such an overwhelming and powerful feeling.
So while I was so exhausted trying to be everything to everyone, it seems these sessions in the freezing arctic tundra, were just what I needed. I needed to know that there is a need and appreciation for me outside of my home. While I know I am so deeply loved & appreciated at home, it sometimes becomes so routined and almost expected? that I think it's hard for anyone to show and feel the appreciation. Does that make sense? I sure hope so. I never want to discredit my son and husband, as I know I am their lifeline as they are mine. But I cannot explain how good it was to get away for 2 hours and provide for someone else. And I think *that* is exactly what I need to continue focusing on and working towards. Because the feelings I walked away with after yesterday, is something I truly want to feel every single day.
So to wrap this Mom Monday up: please, somehow, find something that brings you happiness and purpose. I know our children and families do, but if you can, try to find something outside of all that. Try to find something, whether it be volunteering, finding a new hobby, or even going to Starbucks once a week alone- just find something. You will be surprised how happier you feel, and honestly, you will come back feeling refreshed and a better mama because of it.
Love you all, so much. Happy Monday! <3